Not wanting to drift.

It’s so easy to live this life drifting with the current and waves. Oh, lets add in a comfy canoe…or better yet, a full-service, top-of-the-line yacht, you know, so I can really enjoy the ride. Once I reach my destination I will know that I traveled and lived comfortably, having experienced the best things the world had to offer.

When I found Jesus 4-5 years ago, I realized the best thing ever in life was and is Him. But, life is tricky. Sometimes I forget that He is better…that He is best! I think, “It would be better if I just stayed home today, not go out and bike to the rehab center to teach…I mean, it’s raining, I might get hurts biking…plus, I’m tired” OR “Yeah, I mean, if I stayed in I could watch a couple of my favorite shows, or surf Facebook and Instagram, or do something else.” I get really nervous when it rains. Heck, I’m nervous even when it doesn’t…all those crazy drivers of buses, cars, scooters. Sometimes I say to myself, I’d rather not try and talk to anyone today, my Chinese sucks.” "Yeah, life would be better if I stayed in my comfort zone as much as possible.”

These thoughts illustrate exactly what it means to to drift further and further away from Him. I don’t want to ride the waves. I don’t want to drift with the current. I want to swim the other way. I want to choose to love others, even when I don’t even want to like them, when I can’t understand what they are saying, or when they are rude and mean to me…when it’s not comfortable for me.

I was never promised an easy life. I was never promised a yacht, let alone a canoe. However, I was promised a life filled with opportunities to love and be loved, a life filled with eternal joy…and a chance to be told, “well done”, when I finally reach my end destination. I know I’m not meant to walk with the majority, that this journey is down a very narrow path…but I’m excited to even get to be on it. I’m excited to swim!

-Lily Hsu